It's been a fucking fucking long time since i last blog.
cos last time when i never blog always will have HER to help me blog.
now not with HER already so nobody help me blog.
so i decided to blog by myself.
hais.it's been 348days since i last been alone with her.
these 348days i've been trying my best to forget about everything about us.
but seriously every time i step into my room i really feel your presence.
i feel like you're everywhere to me.
everytime i pass by cathay it'll bring back lots of memories.
memories of us watching movies and eating there.
everytime i pass by your house i'll tend to look up to your unit.
be it by taking bus or walking i'll do the same.never without fail looking up.
hoping you'll be standing at your window looking down.
but i know it's impossible.it's just my wishful thinking.
and everytime i look up to your unit.yang and co. will say me for being stupid.
they always tell me to give up.don't waste time anymore.don't be stupid.
and whenever they ask me if i'll want you back.my answer is still the same as before.
"YES,I'M HOPING FOR HER
TO 1 DAY TEXT ME AND
I'LL DEFINITELY ASK HER
TO BE BACK WITH ME.
AND I'M HOPING 1 DAY
SHE'LL REPLY MY TEXT"
this is what i always tell them.never once change before.
the only time i can get really close and alone with her is in my dreams.
whenever i dream of her and me getting back together i'm always damn happy.
but after that when i'm awake i realise that it's all just a dream.
hais.people always say dreams come true.
but i doubt mine will come true.
i know in the past it's my fault.
always getting angry and shouting at her nasty things.
and got once i know even though she went to meet him alone.
i shouldn't have slept you.
it's my fault.
I'M SORRY SHARON CHNG
HUI LING!
FORGIVE ME WILL YOU?
i know it's my fault and you're blaming me for making you suffer in misery.
sorry for making you suffer in misery.
sorry for making you so scared of me.
sorry for causing you so much trouble.
sorry for not loving you the right way.
sorry for always making you cry.
sorry for not understanding you.
sorry for saying nasty things to you.
I'M SINCERELY SORRY!!!SORRY SORRY SORRY.
please forgive me alright.
i know no matter how many times i apologise.
it's of no use.
nothing can change the fact that i'm not a good boyfriend when i was with her.
i know in her eyes i'm the world worst boyfriend.
but now i seriously want to tell you i've really changed.
seriously changed.
please give me a chance to prove it to you.
maybe not now.
but after you break with him.
i'll be here waiting.
if one day the both of you breaks up.please call me.
i don't mind being your substitute.
if you need someone to hear all your troubles i'll be here for you.
i will and always be here for you if you should need me.
i have never once walked away from you before.
whatever i promise you in the past it's still valid.
you just need to text me and i'll be with you where you want me.
and my promises to you will never ever change.
hais.
this is what i really want to say to you.
I LOVE YOU SHARON
NOW AND FOREVER.
IF I COULD TURN BACK TIME.
I WOULD DEFINITELY TURN TO THE DAY WHEN I WAS WITH YOU.
25 OF AUGUST 2007.
AND I WOULD SHOW YOU THE NEW ME.
AND LOVE YOU LIKE YOU NO ONE ELSE EVER DID.
ILOVEYOUSHARON.
&you just cant be replaced.
