&&how do i live without you?

Hello guys.i am back:)

was busy for the past few days.

cos of me and my younger sister's birthday.

hahaha.went to eat and buy present:)

i got a itouch for my birthday this year.so happy:)

after my birthday celebration at V3 last sunday.i haven't been meeting Yang and co..

all not free.don't know what happened.hahaha.

really miss them.i am trying my best to pull all of us back together.

but nothing seems to be working.nobody wanna meet.

all give excuses.hahaha.but i'll try harder.cos being able to be brothers it's very fortunate.

and the word brother is not just by calling each other bro and stuffs.

brother is to go out happy together.get into trouble together.

so i really wan us to be back together again.

EVERYBODY!!!ALL OF US!!!UNDERSTAND!!!

hahaha.

recently i am having insomnia.

i can't sleep at all.been lying down on my bed.but can't sleep.

although i am damn tired.but just can't sleep.

not sure why either.evrynight for the past 2-3 days been sleeping at 5+ waking up at 8+ 9+.

stupid right!!!

damn damn damn tired already.but just can't sleep.

don't know what is wrong.

hahaha.i must make a trip down to see the doctor soon if this insomnia shit carries on.

cos i can feel my body is damn damn tired.but i just can't get any sleep!!!

poor me:(

but someone out there even worst.

and she is DOELNSJ.

she is sick in her examination period!

and her mummy fall down and admitted to hospital.

hope everything's alright on her side:)

hahaha.

okay okay.

enough for now.it's time i try to force myself to sleep.

LOL.

nights folks:)

P.S DOELNSJ YOU TAKE CARE.FASTER RECOVER.DO WELL IN YOUR EXAMS.AND IF ANYTHING HAPPENS CALL ME.I'LL BE BY YOUR SIDE:D

signing out:DDDDD

&you just cant be replaced.

It's been so long since i last blogged.

hahaha.i'll just write about yesterday 27/09/09

went to celebrate my birthday yesterday at V3.

special thanks to those who wished me happy birthday and those who were with me yesterday.

especially to.Yang.Lydia.Qiang.Kailrence.Hong.Teck Yong.Glen.Joel.Alex.Xiang.Boss.Ah Bee.Jeffery.and Jeffery friends.

thanks you guys a lot a lot!!!

really am happy and touched.

appreciated it very much.

THANKS BROS!

LOVE YOU GUYS!

drank very much yesterday.

got dead drunk.

vomited a lot.really like merlion.

hahaha.but i felt better after vomiting.

LOL.almost all of us was drunk!

drank too much.hahaha.

did had a lot of fun yesterday.really am happy!

once again.

THANKS BROS!

bye guys:)

&you just cant be replaced.

Doel is a very very bad person.

msn talk to me half way than go play audi!!!

argh!!!

but she came back.hahaha.she said she's good.

straight away exit audi talk to me.

but i don't believe.hahaha.

than she say want screen show me.LOL.

she still say i am the only 1 she is talking to.

hahaha.okay okay.how sweet of you DOEL!!!

LOL.

&you just cant be replaced.

so bored la.

don't know how many days didn't blog already.

hmm.maybe tonight when i am back i'll blog see if i'm tired not:)

sorry to keep you guys waiting for so many days:)

รักdoelฉันรักเธอ!!!

LOL.

gonna stop here:)

&you just cant be replaced.

22/09/09 and 23/09/09
hmm.it's been 1 day since i post.

so let me start with yesterday 22/09/09.

i went to prime slack with Jerry and co..

after that Yang came.slacked awhile more that took bus back.

nothing much yesterday.

today 23/09/09.

went to prime slack with Zen and co..

Zen left earlier as he has to work.

so Johnson left with him.cos he don't like slacking.

left me and Dan and co..

slacked awhile more and he left with girlf.

left ZQ and me.we wanted to slack until last bus.

cos only left the both of us.

than slacked at bus stop for quite awhile.

so coincidentally saw Yang and girlf.

he alighted at prime and he said he wanted to find Zen at novena.

so we accompanied him wait for 162 hoping he's able to catch last bus.

but there isn't any bus that goes to novena at that time.

therefore he slacked with us.

while slacking halfway Alex called.

he asked us where were we.

and i told him.he said he's coming down to find us.

waited and waited until he finally came.

thought he wanted to eat.but he wanted to slacked at heights instead.

all of us went to heights slacked and chit-chat.

until around 3+ going 4 than we all left.

didn't felt like going home so slacked alone at prime for about 5mins.

walked around.actually wanted to sit at bus stop.

but very messy.so didn't slowly walked to the traffic light.

waiting for cab.and saw Senky and Kang Wei.

they were going out.so i asked if i could tag along.

so Kang Wei said okay hop on his car.

so off we went.they were heading out to have supper.

but nothing and nowhere were on their minds.

so drove around A.M.K. before reaching a desicion.

and that's geylang.they went there to have Penang Asam Laksa.

went to walk around geylang after supper.

walked about and saw many police.so didn't got to do what Kang Wei wanted.

and we headed home as a result.therefore now i am home blogging:)

hahaha.afterall today quite fun la:)

okay gotta stop here.starting to get sleepy.

nights guys:)

&you just cant be replaced.

Just came back from boat quay.went there to find Yang.

he was with his cousin and friends.so took bus there.

was in time to catch last bus and got there.hahaha.lucky me.

so reached there and went to find Yang first.

went over said hi and stuffs.than Yang accompanied me to find Boss.

therefore went to find Boss and talked some stuffs with him outside V3.

after talking.Yang suggested to eat.so he went over to tell his cousin.

so went to the restaurant there to eat.

he ordered 'sheng mian'.and i ordered sambal onion chicken fried rice.

his food wasn't nice.but mine was.hahaha.he said should have ordered mine instead.

after eating he said was bored and wanted to check the timing for bus.

so went over to bus stop to check.no more bus.LOL.

both of us thought there's NR1 today.but NR1 only operates on Friday.Saturday.and Eve of Public Holidays.

so luck wasn't on our side.went back to find his cousin and co..

slacked inside the pub for awhile.than he wanted to go home.cos damn bored.

hahaha.i agree.cos now boat quay really damn damn desserted.

unlike the past.weekends or weekdays sure packed.

but now not many people.and pubs are closing early.

so said bye to his cousin.and when i wanted to leave.i saw AngMoh.

so went over to talk with him awhile.he wants to get drunk tonight.

cos he'll be leaving for Canada for 3 years.so i think he's quite sad la.

AngMoh cheer up.you'll still be back for 7months stuff and CNY.

so it's okay.cheer up.bro always.so after talking awhile.

went over to say bye to Boss and AhBee.and left.

so now i am home.hahaha.

overall today is a boring day.did nothing much at all.

hahahaha.last night ask people to give me feedback about my blog.

but nobody gives me feedback so i assume that nothing's wrong.

so i'll leave it as it is.LOL.

i'll stop here.gonna sleep soon.

nights guys:)

&you just cant be replaced.

Hmm.today's a super ultra bored day.whole day at home.

nobody call to ask me out.

i am being a homie today.

hahaha.going mad already.since i woke up until now did nothing at home until now!!!!

going mad already.i am thinking of going solo later.

hahaha.solo man.hmm.somebody or someone just ask me out can can can????

bored.signing off!!!!

&you just cant be replaced.

So bored la.can't get to sleep.

hate it when i'm home late in the night and can't sleep.

ARGH!!!this is the time when people are suppose to be sweet in their whatever land.

but i am still wide awake.

hmmm.by the way.i know i don't have much readers for my blog.

but those small amount of people please feedback on my posts okay.

i wanna know if the words are overlapping and stuffs.

so just tag me or msn me and tell me.

thanks:)your help would be very much appreciated.

i think it's time i gonna take more photos and upload.

or else people reading my blog would feel bored.

cos it's all words and words and more words.

hahaha.sometime i should just let the pictures do the talking.

than i wouldn't need to type so much.LOL.

time to get some sleep already.

if still sleep.than maybe i'll come back to blogger and crap.LOL.

nights guys:)

&you just cant be replaced.

Just came back not long ago from prime.

at first thought of leaving at last bus.cos Yang wanted to go novena play lan.

but i didn't had much on me so i said if he wanna go i'll be leaving at last bus.

and the timing he wanted to go to novena was my last bus timing.

so i was alright with it.

so first when to Frankie's.Yang and was eating when i arrived.

than Wilfred came down after they finish eating.

so slacked at Frankie's for awhile.than Wilfred suggested to go other place slack.

but i lazy so i didn't go with it.than all of us continued slacking there.

while slacking.Wilfred kept saying that he POP-ED from his COMMANDO BMT already.

kept saying and saying.until i can't take it.so i said to him that commando also human.

so we kept saying and saying about each other.

not long after Yang suggested to go heights slack.

but due to my laziness i didn't go with it.

so he use another method.he said if i don't go he'll go with Lydia.

therefore i've no choice but to go.so all of us went heights while Wilfred went to get drink.

than reached heights.talked and listened to songs.Yang was bored not long after we reached.

thus he became irritating.when me and Jerry was talking he kept making funny noises.

hence we all started to say each other again.LOL.making fun and stuffs.

awhile later Danny and Baoyi came down.i was surprised when i saw him.

cos nobody asked him down.i thought he heard us making a lot of noise from his house.

that's why he came down.but actually is Wilfred texted him to ask him to come down.

so Baoyi and him went to eat.he asked if any of us wanna tag along with him.

none of us wanted to move.therefore they went off to eat.

sat down for awhile Jerry was irritated by my nonsense.

he couldn't take it anymore and he went off to find Danny.

LOL.sorry Jerry:)

after he cycled there.Yang needed to use toilet.

so all of us went back to Frankie's to accompany Danny to eat.

LOL.at first don't wanna go than suddenly appear there.

he asked us why were we there.

we told him.and he said okay okay.LOL.

so slacked there for quite sometime.

and i did some heart-to-heart talk with the guys.

thank you guys for hearing me.

especially Yang.THANKS BRO:)

after that went back to heights slacked and played blackjack.

Lydia was tired and Yang asked what time are we going back.

we said anything.than Jerry said lets go.

than i asked Yang to go first.

so i told a very stupid lie to Jerry and co. i told them to go back first.

as i'll be waiting for shawn to eat.LOL.

but they called shawn.and they found out.LOL.i'm a stupid liar.

so Jerry was worried i'll be like last time.

slacked alone at prime.he followed me all the way until i got on the cab.

so here i am now at home.LOL.

hmmm.this should be all for the night.

nights readers:)

&you just cant be replaced.

okay.i've just finished doing my post.

cos some of my bros and friends told me that the words are overlapping.

and some told me it's okay.

so i tried it out using my macbook and my desktop.

it really looks damn different on my desktop than on mac.

i asked Wilfred why did this happen he said it's cos of the monitor's resolution.

different com has different resolution.

so now i know.i'll still be using mac to blog.

but this time i'll 'enter' whenever i want my letters to be

LARGEST!!!

hahahah.it's so late already and non of us is making a move to go out.

LOL.i haven't even bath and stuffs.so i think i'm gonna get ready soon.

most probably going to bishan prime to slack.

but don't think there'll be many of us today.

so see how.maybe staying long maybe not.shall decide later.

bye folks:)

&you just cant be replaced.

SHYT MAN.something is wrong with the damn mixpod la.

FUCK.wanna change my skin player also can't.

yesterday is can't save my playlist.now is can't change skin and delete songs.

than tomorrow is what?mixpod shut down?SHYT la.

really is SHYT.ARGH!!!!!!!

somebody who knows mixpod stuff teach me aye.

ARGH!!!!!!mixpod sucks to the core la.FUCK.

!@#@$!@#$@#%%^$&

but to make my day better.

finally someone asked me out.

and it's Jerry.my future in-law.hahaha.cos he claims that he loves my sister.

and he ask me to save my sister for him.LOL.

i know he's joking la.LOL.but don't know what time meeting him eh?!?!?!?!?!?!

hope soon:)

&you just cant be replaced.

So happy.i linked people on my owned.i figured out how to link them.

hahaha.i've linked 8 people just now.if i've left out anyone tag me or msn me.i'll link you:)))

hmmm.just woke up not long.when i woke up straight away came and do blog stuffs.

hahahaha.actually blog stuffs quite easy ah.is i lazy go explore and try.

LOL.since now i know how to do.it's time i do it all on my own.

if i get into and trouble doing blog stuffs.i know i have many good friends who'll help me:))))

thanks guys.especially Rkycia,Xinni,Wilfred they taught and helped me a lot.CHEERS:D

so for today not sure if gonna go out not.

nobody called yet.i think all of them still sleeping.

than Zen gotta work today.Yang not sure if he's going anywhere.

Wilfred and the rest also haven't called yet.not sure if gonna slack today.

maybe today is gonna be a boring sunday.

oh.by the way.today is hari raya.

so to all my malay friends.selemat hari raya.

gonna wait and see who calls me out later already.

bye guy(:

&you just cant be replaced.

okay guys.i've just updated my blog.

hahaha.i've added a playlist in it.hope you guys like it.

and i'm so proud of myself la.i did everything on my own.nobody helped.

YAY.becoming smarter already.hahaha.LOL.now i'm gonna learn how to link.

i think later when i'm awake la.hahahaha.really am tired already.

so see you guys tomorrow.

this time really gonna sleep already.LOL

nights guys:DDDD

&you just cant be replaced.

Finally back from prime.

so tired la.walked with zen and co. from prime to sin ming road.

than from sin ming road took a cab back to sin ming walk.

and it's just like sin ming to sin ming and the fare was $6.70

but i only paid $6.hahaha.lucky cab uncle good.or else gotta go back up to take extra cash.

from prime take cab cheaper.should have boarded cab from prime instead.

next time won't walk till there than take cab.a lesson learnt.LOL

hahahaha.so late already and still can't sleep.

gotta do something about my body clock.or else everyday like that sure gonna fall sick again.

talked with alan about some stuffs about how to do things.

and learnt what to do and what not to do.

so next time i'll do things with brain already.

hahaha.thanks friend.thanks for guiding.

and when i was out my whole body felt damn wolbly.

don't know why too.hahaha.

that's all for tonight folks.

oh i also wanna thank RKYCIA and XINNI for teaching me many blog stuffs.

THANKS FOR TEACHING.hahaha.

i think it's time i gonna try to force myself to sleep.

post tomorrow.see ya'll.

nights guys:D

&you just cant be replaced.

To everyone out there.

i'm leaving my blog as it is.

i'm not gonna change anything.

so do not ask me change.

cos this blog is what she has done for me.

i will not change it.

i'm leaving it as it is.

so thank you for your understanding.

&you just cant be replaced.

It's been a fucking fucking long time since i last blog.

cos last time when i never blog always will have HER to help me blog.

now not with HER already so nobody help me blog.

so i decided to blog by myself.

hais.it's been 348days since i last been alone with her.

these 348days i've been trying my best to forget about everything about us.

but seriously every time i step into my room i really feel your presence.

i feel like you're everywhere to me.

everytime i pass by cathay it'll bring back lots of memories.

memories of us watching movies and eating there.

everytime i pass by your house i'll tend to look up to your unit.

be it by taking bus or walking i'll do the same.never without fail looking up.

hoping you'll be standing at your window looking down.

but i know it's impossible.it's just my wishful thinking.

and everytime i look up to your unit.yang and co. will say me for being stupid.

they always tell me to give up.don't waste time anymore.don't be stupid.

and whenever they ask me if i'll want you back.my answer is still the same as before.

"YES,I'M HOPING FOR HER

TO 1 DAY TEXT ME AND

I'LL DEFINITELY ASK HER

TO BE BACK WITH ME.

AND I'M HOPING 1 DAY

SHE'LL REPLY MY TEXT"

this is what i always tell them.never once change before.

the only time i can get really close and alone with her is in my dreams.

whenever i dream of her and me getting back together i'm always damn happy.

but after that when i'm awake i realise that it's all just a dream.

hais.people always say dreams come true.

but i doubt mine will come true.

i know in the past it's my fault.

always getting angry and shouting at her nasty things.

and got once i know even though she went to meet him alone.

i shouldn't have slept you.

it's my fault.

I'M SORRY SHARON CHNG

HUI LING!

FORGIVE ME WILL YOU?

i know it's my fault and you're blaming me for making you suffer in misery.

sorry for making you suffer in misery.

sorry for making you so scared of me.

sorry for causing you so much trouble.

sorry for not loving you the right way.

sorry for always making you cry.

sorry for not understanding you.

sorry for saying nasty things to you.

I'M SINCERELY SORRY!!!SORRY SORRY SORRY.

please forgive me alright.

i know no matter how many times i apologise.

it's of no use.

nothing can change the fact that i'm not a good boyfriend when i was with her.

i know in her eyes i'm the world worst boyfriend.

but now i seriously want to tell you i've really changed.

seriously changed.

please give me a chance to prove it to you.

maybe not now.

but after you break with him.

i'll be here waiting.

if one day the both of you breaks up.please call me.

i don't mind being your substitute.

if you need someone to hear all your troubles i'll be here for you.

i will and always be here for you if you should need me.

i have never once walked away from you before.

whatever i promise you in the past it's still valid.

you just need to text me and i'll be with you where you want me.

and my promises to you will never ever change.

hais.

this is what i really want to say to you.

I LOVE YOU SHARON

NOW AND FOREVER.

IF I COULD TURN BACK TIME.

I WOULD DEFINITELY TURN TO THE DAY WHEN I WAS WITH YOU.

25 OF AUGUST 2007.

AND I WOULD SHOW YOU THE NEW ME.

AND LOVE YOU LIKE YOU NO ONE ELSE EVER DID.

ILOVEYOUSHARON.

&you just cant be replaced.

i've just helped baby change his blogskin.
he's out at starbucks now.
with boon and johnson.
thats why im here.
lol?

I LOVE YOU [[:

&you just cant be replaced.

went swimming just now[[:
WITH ME!
going bbq later[[:
whatever-

this blog is like so dead can.
no one tag.
NO ONE POST.
lols.
byes!

I LOVE MY BABY BOY[[:

&you just cant be replaced.

11th post -.-
SHARON HERE:D
lol?
im bored.
baby's beside me.
doing nothing-.-
he wants t pierce his septum.
which cost duno how much.
dumb-.-
pay money t get holes on your body-.-"
:x
he has 3 ear piercing,
1 toungue piercing.
whatever.
haha.
i have 3 too:D
thn become 2.
and wanted t have a lip piercing :x
but he dont allow.
then too bad ]]:
whatever. :D
byes!
I LOVE YOU YAP KAILSHEN:D

&you just cant be replaced.

hello =(((((

today is a sad day for me.sob sob.cos baby is going to camp today.at don't know what changi MOE adventure camp.sob sob.been missing her badly since i sent her to school.=_(.I MISS YOU BABY!!!faster come back.sob.and to make things worst ALL CAMPER HAVE TO SURRENDER THEIR PHONE.ARGH!!!!miss my baby already bad enough for me already.now can't even call her.worst.miss her even more la.much much more.couldn't get use to it this morning without her.after i sent her to school i went back to sleep.than when i wake up nobody text me nobody call me.before she went to camp.every morning she'll call me and text me.that's why not use to it.than not use to not texting her too.cos we'll text everyday.sob sob.reach home also can't call her.can't text her.can't this can't that la.ai ya.in short is that life without my baby SUX.totally SUX TO THE CORE.hate it la.than spent the whole day with my bros.xiang.joel.yang and me.went to eat salted duck rice.than after that slack-ed at upper thomson after that.went to prime too.went to alan shop(MOBILE 2000)hahaha.than slack-ed there too.went there cos joel's N80 got problem.than wanted to ask alan what happen.in the end also don't know what happen.hahaha.oh ya.want to know why i caps lock.bold and large the name of alan's shop.cos he always wanted me to help him tell people about his shop.lol.so guys.if any of your phone spoil or needs top up.go there.his shop is at BISHAN STREET 22.NEAR CHEERS.so go there okay.cos he's the best.lol.hahaha.okay okay.that's how i spent my day today.=(((.

BABY.

FASTER COME BACK OKAY.

I KNOW IT'S JUST 2 DAYS 1 NIGHT.

BUT I CAN'T EVEN LIVE WITHOUT YOU

NEAR ME FOR LIKE A SPLIT SECOND.

FASTER COME BACK OKAY.

I LOVE YOU LOADS.

MUACKS MUACKS!!!!

i love you baby
missing you badly baby
01:00AM
MUACKS MUACKS!!!

&you just cant be replaced.

post post post [[:

&you just cant be replaced.

he's playing chess with his brother.
-.-
and im here blogging for him.
bored.

okay.
im done.
bye [[:

&&loves.

&you just cant be replaced.

HELLO:D
wo shi meng mian ren :D
or mong mian ren.
ah. whatever.
super bored.
decided t blog here cause i thought this blog's dying.
and i know that the owner of this blog is still in his bed.
when he's suppose t meet SHARON, his beloved wife at abt 9.00am,
as he suggested.
" i'll ask nana t wake me up at 8.00am "
and now it's 10.33 am.
he's still in bed. -.-
HEN DUO DE YOU WAKE UP AT 8.00am
:D

SHARON LOVES KAILSHEN!

&you just cant be replaced.

HI EVERYBODY!!!!

i am at home now.waiting for brothers to call me out.but none of them called yet.
so bored la.rawh rawh rawh rawh!!!!so bored la.to make things worst.my baby's
at bedok.having some praying things.so bored la.okay okay.shall blog till here.

TODAY'S A BORED DAY!!!!

&you just cant be replaced.

HELLO!!!!

baby's at my house right now.hahaha.i love her very very very much la.hahaha.
don't know what to write already.i only know one thing.and that is.I LOVE BABY.
later tonight won't be able to talk i think.so will have to wait till tomorrow.i'll try my best to call baby later.hahaha.just simply love her loads la.

hahaha
hubby

&you just cant be replaced.

HELLO!!!!

today is a very very special day for us.9 months ago was the day we were together.hahaha.was so happy back than.cos i was like freaking happy and crazy over her reply.hahaha.after all that wait was finally worthwhile.waited her for about 8 months before we got together.the 8 months was really torturous.trust me.after all that hardship.it was worth the wait.looking back now.it's kind of funny though.lol.but now i feel that my world has been coloured up and been filled with lots of love love LOVE!!hahaha.okay okay.later i'm bringing her to the movies than lunch than maybe movie again.hahaha.so so so happy.yea.time really files.so fast and we're together for 9 months already.it seemed like yesterday that we were together.hahaha.love her loads.really really love her.nothing's really gonna change my love for you.NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING.hahaha.i can still remember when and where we first kissed.hahaha.it was when we were watching HAIRSPARY in the cinema than i french with her.hahaha.lol.the real first kiss was at junction 8.out at the 3rd storey open place playground.she didn't went for her training that day.we went to food junction and ate beef noodle.after her dance practice.hahaha.than after eating we went to the open place playground.sat down and talk.she was sad cos of mummy.she eveyday scolded her and said unpleasant things.she felt down at that time.so i put my hands on her cheeks and kissed her for head.hahaha.was really shy that time.lol.but after that she felt better i think.cos she smiled.hahaha.see.kisses does wonders.hahaha.lol.joking.but soomehow i feel that way.lol.the first time i held her hands were behind her house carpark.after watching our first show.SECRET.hahaha.she was walking infront of me than i said if you still don't wait for me i'll go up and hold your hand and we'll walk together.she didn't believe.so i did what i said and held her hand.she pushed my hands away.=[[[.but never mind.cos at that time we wasn't together yet.hahaha.that's why.and i felt bad after that.cos i feel that i should have asked for her permission first.than after that i felt damn guilty.throughout the night when we were talking over phone i kept asking her does she feel angry or something.she said no.hahaha.though she said no i still felt guilty.hahaha.okay okay.and back to now.i want to say something to my baby.
''BABY,ALTHOUGH WE ALWAYS QUARREL NOW AND THAN,BUT HUBBY ALWAYS LOVE YOU.HUBBY'S LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER FADE.TRUST HUBBY WHEN I SAY THAT I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER.AND I'LL MARRY YOU.TRUST ME OKAY.ALL THESE ARE FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART OTHER THAN SHOWING IT TO YOU IS TAKING IT OUT FOR MY BODY AND SHOW YOU HOW REAL AND DEEP MY LOVE IS FOR YOU.I LOVE YOU BABY.TRUST ME OKAY.WE'LL LAST FOREVER.''
okay okay.i'll have to stop here for now.try my best to fill you guys in after going out with her.

loves
from:hubby
to:us
lovebaby
muacksmuacks!!!

&you just cant be replaced.